Life has been interesting since I was laid off. It's been about 4 months and I'm having trouble remembering what it was like having that 7:30-4:30 job. I know that I'm glad to be out of the company I was with. From what I hear, things there just keep getting worse. And I no longer have to care.

I know I've learned to slow down some, which is nice. But at the same time, I don't have an excuse not to do something (e.g. I can't; I have to work), so I'm taking on all kinds of things. I'm exploring, so I'm trying out different things.

Still, I feel like I'm stagnating. I know I'm not, but it feels that way. Actually, I really like working only one part-time job (which is turning out to be a lot of work), but I don't like transferring money from my savings account to my checking account to live on. That's when I have to remind myself that the Universe is looking out for me and that it's only temporary. I really do want to enjoy this time off. It's nice to get to projects I haven't had time to do. It's nice to get to projects more quickly. I finished my taxes today--probably the first time I've ever gotten them done in Feb.

I used to think that if only I could be home more, life would be really good. Life has improved since I've been home more, but I need more connection to others than I'm getting. I get out and do things with people (mainly eating meals), but it's not on a regular basis and it doesn't give me the amount of connection I need.

My children are far away and very busy, so the challenge is for me to have more connection to people who help me get the right kind of connection and/or stimulation so that I can feel less isolated. Another job would put me out with people more, but the connections may be more challenging than stimulating or nurturing.

Waaaaah! I sound a little bit like a whiner. Life is good. I'd just like more/better connection to others. I place this desire in the hands of the Universe. And so it is.